A Private Journal Note — On Meaning, Progress, and Non-Linear Terrain - Draft 0.1
Over the last few days, a philosophical idea has been sitting with me — the distinction between pessimism, nihilism, and optimism. I didn’t grasp it at first in the abstract. But as often happens for me, clarity came when I placed it on familiar terrain. Rehab has been that terrain. Since my brain surgery in July 2024, I’ve been in continuous rehabilitation. The first seven months brought visible, encouraging progress in regaining mobility. I carried that momentum into 2025 with the same intent and discipline. And then something important became undeniable: recovery is not linear. There are advances, plateaus, regressions, and surprises — sometimes all in the same week. I realized that I cannot live this journey either by despair (“what’s the point?”) or by shallow optimism (“everything will work out”). Both feel like evasions. What does feel honest is something more balanced and more demanding: being deeply grateful for where I am today, while remaining hopeful — without e...